Tuesday, 30 October 2018

7 years of dance!

It came up on my Facebok TimeHop last week: seven years ago was when DD1 had her first trial of dance lessons.  When she was 3yo we had signed her up to gymnastics lessons.  As a toddler she was very 'academic' - she was already reading at this age, but wasn't the most coordinated of people, so we thought gymnastics might help her gain her balance etc.  And it did (and yes, she still does gym now).  On the same site as gymnastics, we would walk past a preschool ballet class.  DD1 would look through the windows longingly and ask to join in. So, a couple of months after her 4th birthday DD1 started dancing: 45min which incl 30min ballet and 15min tap.

She was only in the preschool class for a few months, before being moved up to the next classes: 45min each of ballet and tap.  And she was in her first dance school show, in our local theatre, that November when DD1 had just turned 5.  Of course, DD2 was being dragged around the classes, when we had to wait for DD1's lessons, so when she was old enough she wanted to start dancing too.  It turns out that you can start dancing from 2.5yo, so after the show had finished, DD2 started in the preschool class. 

It's amazing how time flies, but also how dance takes over our lives!  From a 45min class, I'm now at the dance school (which has now moved to larger studios) 6 days a week - sometimes 7 if there is a show or a festival coming up and extra practice is needed. My schedule is now as follows:


  • Monday - DD1 & DD2 Joint private lesson for Musical Theatre exams
  • Tuesday - DD1 does Grade 4 Modern, Grade 5 Modern, Grade 4 Tap, Joint Private lesson with DD2 for Festival solos, Grade 4 Ballet.  DD2 does her 1.5hr gymnastics class, and then joins DD1 for their Festival private lesson.
  • Wednesday - DD1 does Silver Tap and Silver Jazz, then does her 1.5hr gymnastics class.  DD2 does Free Syllabus Ballet
  • Thursday - DD1 does Grade 4 National.  If we're busy on the weekend, then DD2 will do her ballet, tap and modern classes on a Thursday.
  • Friday - DD1 does Festival Duets class.  Then DD1 & DD2 are together for Junior Acro for Dance, Junior Musical Theatre, Junior Limbering, Junior Festival Groups
  • Saturday - DD2 does Grade 1 Ballet, Grade 1 Tap, Grade 2 Modern, Junior Free Syllabus Jazz.  DD1 does a Theatre Company for 2 hours at a different performing arts school.
  • Sunday - DD1 has monthly practices as part of Tap Attack Junior Associates that she successfully auditioned for earlier this year.
And that doesn't even include any dance festivals.  

Fortunately, the girls' dance school only does festivals during half-terms, but since it is half-term here now, we're having to travel 1.5hrs each way, to go to a dance festival in Pershore this week.  But we have had some success!

DD1 did her duet, and it was the best we'd ever seen her perform it!  She didn't get placed, but there were 24 duets in their group, so she had some stiff competition.
DD2 had her Tap solo yesterday, and got a Silver medal!  There were fewer competitors in her group, but is the first medal she has received for a solo so she is very proud of herself.
We're back at the festival for more solos and group dances next weekend.



Friday, 26 October 2018

I'm Back!

With a new laptop, so can finally connect to the world again - phew!

What's new with you? Seemingly not much has happened here, though I know I've missed writing, so it is probably more to do with my memory due to getting older, than anything else; as at some point in the past little while I have had something to say.

I had a mini-cancer scare.  Not a big one, and not anything I was actually worried about, but because I'm BRCA1+ I need to be extra vigilant.  The skin on one of my breasts has changed, so I had to make a GP appointment. The system at my local surgery has changed, so all calls now go through to a call centre that is centralised to many surgeries.  As a result, even though I phoned first thing in the morning and was on hold for 30min, when I got through there were no appointments left.  After a bit of a mix-up, I got a call from a GP and managed to get an appt the following day.  When I saw the GP he said it looked like dermatitis, which is what I suspected anyway, but better safe than sorry.


I'm actually 'on hold' at the moment to the same call centre.  I need to make asthma reviews for myself and the girls; but this new system is a nightmare.  I have opted for a call-back this time, but I've no idea how long that'll take and I daren't go to the loo in case that's when they choose to return my call.

I'm still going with my 2B Mindset training course.  I've had the virtual F2F session with Ilana, and am now finishing up going through the videos and the coursebook before I take the exam.  Fortunately, it seems that you can take the test as many times as you need, before you pass, as long as it's within 3 months; so that's a good sign.  But, I do want to complete it asap, so I don't have it hanging over my head over Christmas.  Speaking of which, I finally completed last year's tax return for HMRC yesterday.  Normally I like to do it in April, but I wasn't up to date, so kept putting it off and putting it off... Even though the deadline isn't until 31st January, I was still getting nervous that I wasn't doing it, so I'm glad I can feel relaxed now.

And this weekend starts yet another dance festival, so we'll be driving to Pershore and back, repeatedly, over the next week.  Both girls are dancing, and  it is good experience for them, even if it uses up all my time and money!

Hopefully, next time I write, I'll have something a bit better to say.

Thursday, 18 October 2018

Why on earth would you be a Naturist?


Firstly, being a naturist is more than being naked.  For example, I still consider myself a naturist, but it's too cold to be without clothing at the moment - Brrrrr!  Naturism is the enjoyment of non-sexual nudity.  For me, it's simply the sensible option when hot, or when going swimming, or even when camping.

If you're hot, it's so annoying when you are somewhere where you can't remove your shirt.  Blokes have it lucky in that it's generally acceptable for them to remove their shirt when hot, but the same isn't for women.  So, I am a big supporter for the TopFreedom Movement.

Similarly when swimming - what is the point of putting on clothing that will only get wet and stick to your skin, leaving nothing to the imagination anyway AND you then have to do the ridiculous Towel Dance in order to get dry and changed? Or worse, look like you're trying to emulate Mr Bean?!!
Ignoring the fact that most people look better naked than squished into a swimming costume, it's easier to simply drip dry when naked, and redress quickly and efficiently.



Camping may sound strange, but you also feel warmer when naked than partially clothed, and showering when camping, again, s quick and efficient.  There's no need to take a bag of clothes to the shower, trying to shower without getting your clothes nor towel wet, and then balancing on one leg in a small cubicle, trying to change without getting your clothes on the wet floor and the water from next door's shower coming underneath.  Nope. Simply take a towel to the shower; shower; dry your body with said towel and then wrap it around your hair before walking back to your tent. Easy.

And that is all ignoring the sensory side of naturism - the feeling of the sun on your skin, a warm breeze, cool water etc.  It helps you feel alive.
And (again) the social side - firstly, everyone is treated as equals.  There is no evidence of anyone's status or education or money or anything else when naked, we are all simply who we are and are accepted as so.  There are the body beautiful, the young, the old and wrinkly, fat and skinny.  There are people with scars, disabilities, medical needs (eg stoma bags that you can see when naked).  Everyone gets accepted for who they are.  And (again, again) actually I never noticed until I became a naturist that people don't talk to my eyes when I'm dressed.  Yes, my boobs are on the bigger side of normal, but it was startling to me initially that, when naked, people DID look into my eyes/face when talking.  They'd already seen my breasts - no need for them to keep looking there to get a glimpse or imagine what was below my clothing.
And (again, again, again) yes, there are children.  Personally I think it is important that children grow up seeing real, naked people.  Firstly it takes away any potential danger or compromising situation about "show me yours and I'll show you mine" or naïvely getting into a situation they can't handle out of ignorance/curiosity.  Secondly, for their own mental health, it is important that children do not only see naked models or porn stars. People do come in all shapes and sizes.  Some people are hairier than others.  Some people are not totally symmetrical (in fact, most women's breasts are not symmetrical).  There is no such thing as "normal".

But what about paedophiles? In my experience, naturists tend to be more aware and more protective of children.  Obviously, everyone has to do what they are comfortable with themselves, but naturism is family-friendly and non-sexual.  So for me, I allow DD1 and DD2 to stay dressed or to undress as they want.  I do not allow any photographs of them when naked.  And they are supervised as they would be anywhere else. 
In the unlikely event that there was a paedophile at an event (obviously beaches are public so can't be controlled as well, but the police are on our side and swiftly act if there is any unwanted behaviour), Naturist Clubs and British Naturism have child protection policies and if there is inappropriate sexual behaviour (between adults) they will warn/evict/ban as appropriate, and if anything involves a child, obviously there would be an immediate ban and the police would be involved.

Isn't it illegal? No.  Naturism in the UK is not illegal.  In fact, in England and Wales it is LEGAL to be anywhere in public when naked, unless there are specific by-laws for that area.  I would say that common sense is needed, for example walking past a school when naked may not be the most sensible idea, but being in your own home or garden, or in the countryside or on a beach, nudity is perfectly allowed.

But what about The Naked Rambler? His is a specific case, and I do have some sympathy for him, though I don't necessarily think he goes about things the right way.  So, in Scotland, they interpret the law about nudity causing offense slightly differently to England and Wales, so I would not advise anyone to be naked in public in Scotland unless on a specific naturist beach/club or at a specific event.  Things are changing slowly in Scotland, but it's not something I could in good conscience recommend.  But he was arrested in England too! Yes, he was arrested and imprisoned for repeatedly breaking his ASBO.  Just because someone has an ASBO to prevent them being out after 9pm, does not mean everybody has to stay in after 9pm.  Similarly, just because someone has an ASBO preventing them being naked in public, does not mean everybody has to be clothed in public.  Whether I think the ASBO preventing nudity is right (I don't) is another conversation, but the reason for his arrests were for breaking that ASBO and refusing to dress to appear in court.

But what about your faith? All the Christians I know are prudes... Let's start by repeating the fact that Naturism is non-sexual nudity.  So whether a Christian would be classed by you as a 'prude' or not, has nothing to do with naturism.  If you read the Bible, you can see that nudity is not demonised at all.
Genesis 1:27, 31 says "So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day." 
God saw naked people, and called it good!  It was only after they had sinned and felt shame, that they wanted to hide away and found themselves clothes.  Even throughout the rest of the Bible, there are stories of prophets walking, preaching, prophesying when nude. Nude is not Rude!
Anyone interested in finding our more about being a Christian and a Naturist, I would recommend looking at this site: Christian Naturist Fellowship.  Yes, there are enough naturist Christians to have a group and a website!  And yes, I have been to services when naked.

This is getting quite long, so I'll leave the story of how I became a naturist to another time...




Monday, 15 October 2018

Always Learning


Another of the great things of the 2B Mindset is there is no such thing as pass/fail.  You always Try it, Track it, and See if it works for You.  It gives you the freedom that if you do eat something that with hindsight you could have done without, then you don't throw the baby out with the bathwater and start demolishing everything in sight.  You simply learn from your mistake and do better next time.

For example, I went away last weekend, and I knew I would not be in control of what food I ate, but was determined to try and stick to the Plate-It ratios as best I could. What I didn't foresee, however, was that there would be ZERO veggies.  I'm not joking!  Other than the final day, when I was free to eat 2 plates of salad, there was not a single vegetable served alongside any of the meals (or even within them!).  I did eat fruit every day, but the bulk of the meals were carb based (not even FFCs!) with meat and sauces/accessories.

So, my weight this morning, unsurprisingly, has increased to 95.4kg - only 0.6kg lower than my starting weight a fortnight ago.  But, I am not concerned.  I did drink plenty of water over the weekend, and I will return to eating Veggies Most today, and it will soon fall off again.

My key learning, is that if I go somewhere where I am not in control of what is being prepared, to plan ahead and take veggies with me.  It will be hard, especially without a fridge/cooker, but if I am travelling for a weekend, then there are some veggies that can cope without being refrigerated that can be eaten raw.  Rather than take a cake along if asked (which I did, not realising that everyone else took a cake too!), take along a platter of veggies, or perhaps some easy-cook vegetables that could be brought out as a side dish.


My weight has gone up, but all is not lost.
Learn, Move On, and Do Better Next time.

God's Story and Our Story

That was the theme of the church retreat.  We spent time looking at the overview of God's Story; looking back, looking forward and looking up at who God is.

If you ever get a chance to go on retreat, either with others or by yourself, I'd recommend it as a great time to step away from normal life and getting to know God (and yourself!) a bit better.

On Saturday afternoon, I had some time to myself, so I listened to worship music whilst reading and exploring the Bible.  After doing that for a couple of hours, it was interesting to see that though I had no specific plan of what I wanted to study, it was very clear that God was showing me all about His love, and that His love is continual and evident throughout the whole of His story and our story (which coincidentally, or God-incidentally, was this weekend's theme).

So, I'm going to share with you some of the verses I was reading and meditating on: God loved us, loves us, and will always love us.  We do not deserve God's love and there is nothing we can do to merit it.

Psalm 138:1-3

I will praise You with my whole heart;
Before the gods I will sing praises to You.
I will worship toward Your holy temple,
And praise Your name
For Your loving kindness and Your truth;
For You have magnified Your word above all Your name.
In the day when I cried out,
You answered me,
And made me bold with strength in my soul.

John 15:5, 12, 16

"I am the vine, you are the branches.  He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing."
"This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you."
"You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you."

1 John 4:18-21

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment.  But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.  We love Him because H first loved us.
If someone says "I love God" and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? And this commandment we have from Him; that he who loves God must love his brother also.

Proverbs 13:5

A righteous man hates lying,
But a wicked man is loathsome and comes to shame.

1 John 1:6-9

If we say that we have fellowship with Him and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth.  But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His son cleanses us from all sin.  If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.  If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.


Our Father
Who art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thine Kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our sins
As we forgive those who sin against us
And lead us not into temptation
And deliver us from evil
for Thine is the Kingdom,
The power and the Glory
Forever and ever.
Amen


Revelation 3:5

"He who overcomes shall be clothed in white garments, and I will not blot out his name from the Book of Life; but I will confess his name before my Father and before His angels."

Jude 24, 25

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling,
And to present you faultless
Before the presence of His Glory with exceeding joy,
To God our Saviour,
Who alone is wise
Be Glory and majesty
Dominion and power,
Both now and forever.
Amen.

Psalm 150

Praise the Lord!
Praise God in His Sanctuary,
Praise Him in His mighty firmament!
Praise Him for His mighty acts;
Praise Him according to His excellent greatness.
Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet;
Praise Him with the lute and harp!
Praise Him with the timbrel and dance;
Praise Him with stringed instruments and flutes!
Praise Him with loud cymbals;
Praise Him with clashing cymbals!
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!

Sunday, 14 October 2018

"Pervert!"

That's what I shouted at 3am Saturday morning, on my church retreat!


Fortunately, I didn't wake anyone else (I was in my own room, and my neighbours didn't hear me) because it was just a nightmare.  Very odd.  I often have nightmares/strange dreams, but usually I just wake up suddenly from them, I don't usually shout/scream, so I can only think that it was because I wasn't in my own bed.

We had just moved house to a secluded old home (which incidentally was laid out similar to my childhood home); everybody had gone to bed and there was a knock on the door.  DD1 said there were loads of people outside trying to get in, but my dad said to ignore it.  I pretend I'm sleeping because I know that if they notice I'm awake, they will make me get up and answer the door, but I am comfy.
Eventually, the voices go away from the front of the house, and get louder where I am at the back.  This house has been built on a hill, so even though I'm upstairs from the front door, my bedroom is at ground-level at the back of the house.  Teenagers start peering in my bedroom window and they see me pretending to sleep, as I'm under the covers naked.  They then break the window and try to pull the covers off me.  As there are so many of them, I can't keep my duvet around me, so I start shouting "Pervert! Pervert! Pervert!"
And then I awoke.

Friday, 12 October 2018

A Weekend Away

I'm going on my Church's weekend retreat this evening, and I'm looking forward to it.  It will be a
good chance to get to know the people from my church more, and to build up my relationship with God.  It does mean that I will be entirely offline until Monday, but a break from technology is good for us all, at times.

To prepare, I have packed my bags, baked a cake, and bought myself a sandwich for tea.  I have written my husband a detailed list of where the children have to be and when, as apparently the kitchen calendar isn't good enough!  He even has it easy, because DD2 is at a party tomorrow, rather than having to be taken to dance, then home, then dance, then home again, as I usually have to do on a Saturday.  I do the Saturday running-around, because my father-in-law is ill so my husband has to travel to Wales each weekend.  Despite our hectic lives, Friday night is usually our Date-night, because we have THREE hours where BOTH girls are in dance lessons at the same time!  It's a mini-miracle!  So, I'll be missing that tonight, as I'll drop the girls off at dance, and then head straight to the retreat.  My husband will be able to have the chance to go for a decent length of run, before having to pick the children up.

This will be a test for me, as I will have no control over what I eat.  All the meals are prepared as a group, and provided for the group.  I will have to keep in mind the principles of the 2B Mindset, and aim, at a minimum, to drink Water First and eat Veggies Most, even if I can't practice the usual way to Plate It for breakfast, lunch or dinner.  This morning I have lost weight, so over the fortnight since I started I have lost 2lbs/week - assuming I don't put on any over the weekend!  I am allowed a treat, so will have a slice of the cake I made, but will try (honest!) not to have a slice of every cake, biscuit or cookie that is on offer.

So, God Bless you, thank you for reading this blog, and I hope you have a blessed and peaceful weekend xx




Thursday, 11 October 2018

Is Fast Food Off limits?


No!  The 2B Mindset is all about making mindful, considerate choices. 


Sometimes, if you are out-and-about, you will have to pick up a lunch to eat on the go.  These days there are more and more healthy sandwiches, sushi, protein pots, salads, smoothies etc that can be picked up when out.  But this is the real world, and sometimes you do just have a hankering for a burger.


Even a fast food outlets like McDonalds, KFC and Burger King do salads, smoothies, and even little packets of fruit or veggies on the side.  But still, this is the real world, and sometimes you still have a hankering for a burger.  So, how do you fit this with the 2B Mindset?

It is simple.  When you purchase the 2B Mindset, it covers the basics of how to plate up your meals into appropriate portions. This simple methodology can be used at home, when eating out, or when on the go.  No matter your situation, you can use this to help you lose weight, and keep it off long term.

So for me, I ordered the Quarter Pounder and substituted a Shake Salad for fries.  

Then I removed half the bun, so that my lunch was in the ratio:
1/2 veggies
1/4 protein
1/4 FFCs

Now in reality, I don't know whether the make-up of the burger bun qualifies it as an FFC or not (I'm sure if I looked on the McD's website it would tell me), but you can see I got the rough quantities right.

The main thing to remember from our 2 Bunnies: Water First, and Veggies Most.
From there, you can't go far wrong!

Overnight Oats Recipe

Ok, so I'm a little late to the Overnight Oats party.  Having been a long-time lover of porridge, a friend recommended I try overnight oats, as an alternative for mornings when I have less time.  Overnight oats are simple rolled oats that have been soaked overnight, so they go plump and smooth and delicious, and you can add any flavour you like.  They are a good 2B breakfast because they consist of protein (milk and fat-free yoghurt) and FFCs (oats, and optional fruit), so as well as being delicious they give you the energy boost that you need in the morning, and help keep you feeling full and satisfied for longer, so that you are not tempted to snack midmorning.

The following recipe is for one portion, however, by drinking water first, I get full on half the amount, so save the rest for the following day.  Overnight Oats can be kept for up to 5 days in the fridge (though personally I only leave it at most 2 days because I make it every other day).

Basic Ingredients

1/2 cup rolled oats
1/2 cup almond milk (or other milk of your choice)
1/4 cup 0% Fat Greek Yoghurt (or vegan alternative)
1-3 tsp maple syrup (or honey or other natural syrup)
pinch of salt

Flavourings - This is where you can go as wild and be as imaginative as you want.

Snickers: 1 tbsp. cocoa powder, 1 tbsp. peanut butter

Autumn Apple: 1/2 apple chopped small, 1/2 tsp cinnamon, 1/4 tsp nutmeg

Banana Almond: 1 banana mashed, 1 tbsp. almond butter, 3 drops almond essence

Christmas Cake: 1 tbsp. almond butter, 1 tbsp. flax seeds, 1 tbsp. sultanas/mixed fruit, 3 drops almond essence, 1 tsp mixed spice - I made this up yesterday and ate it this morning.  It was *DELICIOUS!*

Cherry Bakewell: 1 tsp almond butter, 2 drops almond essence, small handful of frozen cherries - I've not actually made this one yet, but I love the combination of almond and cherries.

Method: 

Thoroughly mix all the ingredients and flavourings.
Put into an airtight container and leave in the fridge for at least 8 hours or overnight.
(This is the point where I split my mixture in half and store in 2 containers.)
Add toppings, give a quick stir and enjoy.

Toppings:
Lots of overnight oat recipes suggest toppings, that you should only add before you eat, so that they keep their crunchiness and texture.  Eg. Chopped nuts, chopped fruit, chocolate chips etc. depending on the flavour you're going for.

Personally, I don't have time for extra faff in the morning, so have not been adding any toppings at all, and the oats have still been delicious.




Wednesday, 10 October 2018

Quick and Filling lunch

Whilst working hard on the 2B Mentor Course, I stopped briefly for lunch.

Now, my children all like different foods, so I'm often making different meals, and I eat a hodgepodge of different bits and pieces.  Today, I had a craving for vegetable fries (carrot, parsnip and beetroot) and cooked myself some, and grated a little cheese on top.  I was also making DD2 some pasta, so for my carbs, I had some of that too.  Delicious and very filling.
Don't forget to note the trusty 2B Water bottle that is kept with me all the time, and encourages me to drink enough water throughout the day, and to drink water first before any meal.

Tuesday, 9 October 2018

Egg Fried Rice Recipe

A great side dish, or dinner, that is fast, easy to prepare and delicious, is egg fried cauli rice.

I have to be honest - I'm not a big cauliflower fan.  I used to only eat it smothered in cheese sauce.
However, I am a huge fan of cauli rice.  Simply take your head of cauliflower, wash it and blitz in a food processor to make "rice".  Then put in a microwaveable bowl, cover with cling film, and microwave for a couple of minutes.  Or, as I did today, use ready prepared cauli rice, which can be bought in the UK either fresh or frozen.  I keep frozen cauli rice in my freezer, so that I can make this delicious meal.  It took me less than 5minutes for my lunch today.


Ingredients

Cauli rice
Spring Onions
1 kcal Spray Oil
2 Eggs
Light Soy Sauce

Method


Lightly fry the onion in a couple of sprays of oil. 
Add 2 eggs and stir so they scramble slightly.
Just before the egg sets, add the cauli rice and stir until cooked/heated through.
Add Soy Sauce to taste.
Enjoy! 


Variations include using Sesame Oil, Garlic, Ginger and some frozen peas for the Chinese taste.  Or, garlic, ginger, white onion, turmeric, cardamom pods, fresh coriander leaves, for an Indian taste.   Or, mixed nuts, dried fruit, chopped apricots and spices for a Moroccan flavour.  Or even eat the cooked cauli rice cold with fresh pineapple, chopped peppers, halved cherry tomatoes and chopped cucumber for a summery salad.  It is entirely up to you.

Now, you may be wondering "How much Cauli Rice?" and "How many Spring Onions?"
The beauty of the 2BMindset is that it is entirely up to you!  My lunch today was made from 1 portion of frozen cauli rice and 4 spring onions, and I feel happy and satisfied. But I have made it previously with 2 portions of cauli rice, and that is enough to fill even my large stomach!
Just remember that this is a good healthy plate of veggies with protein, so will fill you up for longer and keep you full.

This recipe, and more, can be found in the Recipe book provided if you decide to buy the 2B Mindset from https://www.beachbodyondemand.com/

Monday, 8 October 2018

2lbs at a time

Or in my case: 1 kg at a time, and I've achieved that!

This morning, my weight was 94.7kg, so I have lost over 1kg this week.  Over the course of the week, my weight has gone up and down, and by using the Scale every day, I can see that this fluctuation is 'normal', so I am not worried if one day I am heavier than the previous one, because over the week, it balances out.  And by tracking the food you eat, and the water you drink each day, it is easy to see which foods affect you, and which aid weightloss.


Thursday, 4 October 2018

What's the deal with BRCA and Cancer?

Everybody has the BRCA1 gene, and the BRCA2 gene.  The genes are tumour suppressors, whose job is to find tumour/cancer cells and kill them or stop them growing, while other cells kill them.
However, in some people, there is a mutation in that gene, so that they don't do their job properly.  For example, statistically, it takes 6 mutations in a cell for it to become cancerous.  Ideally, when mutations happen within the DNA, the cell self-destructs, or if it gets past that stage, other cells notice and kill them.  So the chance of 6 mutations, that have sneaked past all the checkpoints, to happen in a single cell is fairly low.  However, in people with the BRCA1/2 mutations, there are fewer checkpoints, resulting in certain cancers being more likely.

BRCA stands for BReast CAncer, as that was the first cancer linked with that gene, but it is linked to other cancers too: ovarian, prostate, pancreatic, peritoneal cancer, amongst others. 
To complicate things slightly: not all breast cancers (for example) are a result of the gene - many more are just random cancerous mutations.  But, if you have the gene, you are much more likely to get those specific cancers.
In the normal population, a woman has a 12% lifetime risk of getting breast cancer, and less than 2% lifetime chance of getting ovarian cancer.  In myself, as a BRCA1 mutant, I have (had) a 40% chance of getting ovarian cancer, and have a whopping 85% chance of getting breast cancer.  For comparison, the NHS/BMA (I can't remember who, offhand) considers a "high chance of cancer" to be greater than 1 in 3, or 33%.

I found out I carried the BRCA1 mutation, because I underwent a genetic test, specifically looking for the mutation.  Because the mutation is hereditary, to qualify for the test you need to have either a strong family history of cancer, or have a relative known to have the gene mutation.  In my case, my mum is BRCA1. She was tested because back in 2015, she was diagnosed with Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer, coupled with the fact that her cousin had died of Ovarian Cancer, previously.

Another Stat: Most women diagnosed with ovarian cancer are diagnosed at stages 3 or 4.  Of those diagnosed at stage 4, only 15% survive for 5 years from diagnosis.

Thank God, my mum's cancer responds well to chemo, as it is now over 3.5yrs from diagnosis.  Her cancer has been recategorised as Chronic Cancer, meaning the risk will never fully go away as it is in her blood and in her lymphatic system, but as long as she is willing to go through chemo, she should continue to survive.  Her latest round of chemo started last week.  This is her third recurrence (so 4th time of having cancer), and the chemo treatment is due to last until next Jan/Feb depending on whether they stop over Christmas.

My mum has suffered with IBS and digestion issues for years, and frequently had ovarian cysts that needed to be removed and fibroids.  Every time she went to the doctor, she would be told it was her IBS.  And I do believe she had IBS.  However, Ovarian Cancer also has the same symptoms as IBS.  When she was finally diagnosed, it was Stage 4 meaning it had already spread, and was in the lymph nodes in her neck.  After 4 rounds of chemo, the tumour and shrunk enough in her abdomen to be removed by surgery, and was still 20cm x 10cm n size!  They also performed a full hysterectomy at the same time.

So, my mum was given the option of the genetic test, and was shown to be positive for the mutation in her BRCA1 gene.  As it is hereditary, I had a 50:50 chance of having inherited it, and both myself and my sister have.  Similarly, my children both have a 50:50 chance of having inherited it from me, but as it is not a childhood cancer, they can't be tested until they choose, over the age of 18yo.  Incidentally, my mum inherited the mutation from her father.  BRCA1 also increases the risk of breast cancer in men, and increases their risk of prostate cancer.

So, for me, the choice was obvious: full hysterectomy ASAP.  I have had my children, I never wanted more than two.  Though not totally silent, Ovarian Cancer is dubbed the Silent Cancer because it's symptoms often get mistaken for something else, and there is no reliable test for ovarian cancer.  So, I had my hysterectomy in 2016, and am now on HRT for the next 15-20 years because I am in Surgical Menopause.  I have no periods, no mood swings (at least that I'm aware of), and no menopausal symptoms like hot flushes or night sweats.
Most people with a BRCA mutation, only have BSO (Bilateral Salipingo Oopherectomy - only ovaries and fallopian tubes), rather than full hysterectomy, but I also suffered from heavy and painful periods so had everything removed. (I've just realised that at some point in the past two years, I've forgotten the medical terms for heavy and painful periods.  It's myrrh...something or other, I think. I just can't remember! Found it: Menorrhagia and Dysmenorrhea. Phew!)

My sister, otoh, opted to have a double mastectomy first of all.  She had reconstruction with expanders, and then implants.  I am planning to have PBM too (Prophylactic Bilateral Mastectomy) but in ~4 years time.  The reason for the delay is because I Home Ed my girls, and don't want to take time out from that, and for them having to miss their regular activities.  Additionally, the reconstruction I want to have is a DIEP flap - this basically, means that at the same time as having my breasts removed, I will have fat pouches taken from my stomach (you know I have plenty there!) to reconstruct my breasts from my own tissue.  This greatly reduces the risk of the new breasts being rejects, and puts my slow-grown tummy fat to good use!  But, being a much larger operation than having implants, it has a much longer recovery time.  Hence, why I'm waiting until my children are old and confident enough to use buses etc by themselves, to get themselves to dancing and groups.  That said, if DD2 follows in DD1's footsteps and decides to go to secondary school, then maybe I can get it done a year earlier than planned?  And it's why I'm using the 2B Mindset to help me lose weight, as I need to get my BMI below 30 in order to qualify for DIEP.

One more thought before I stop: I am soooooo thankful for the NHS in the UK.  It seems to get a bad rep, but is absolutely brilliant.  They have saved my mum, and are continuing to save her and return her to health.  They have saved me from ovarian cancer (though technically the risk is not 0%, it's pretty close).  The op I had done, was free at the point of use.  I do have to pay for my prescription of HRT patches but that is a small price to pay.  In comparison, for the op I had (Total Laparoscopic Hysterectomy with 1 night in hospital) would have cost me upwards of $25,000 in the US, so I may have considered not having this life saving treatment.

Wednesday, 3 October 2018

God is God!

So we looked around two more schools today.  One this morning and another this afternoon.

The one this morning seemed like a good school (it has a good academic reputation) but didn't set DD1 alight, and she said she'd prefer to stay home ed than go there.

This afternoon's school was amazing!  It specializes in Performing Arts (have I mentioned DD1 loves to dance? lol) but because we are out of the catchment area, DD1 would have to audition to try and get one of the Performing Arts places - of which there are only 15.  The school itself  had a lovely feel to it; the head teacher was giving off good vibes, the tour showed the school off in a good light, all the questions we asked were answered in the way we wanted, and they even baseline test every child in Yr7 for any SEN, whether officially diagnosed or not, so they can help them if they have dyslexia or dysgraphia or whatever learning or physical needs they have. Great!  If I were choosing a school for myself when I was that age, I would have loved this school for the academic side of things (I was/am a geek).  If choosing for DD1, I think she would love this school for the performing arts side of things.  DD1 liked the school... but doesn't want to audition.

DD1 does dance shows, musical theatre shows, dance and musical theatre festivals etc.  She is not shy, and not one to be scared of performing, but she is adamant that she does not want to audition.  I have had a brief word with her dance teacher to see whether it was worth my while pushing encouraging her to audition - yes! I have considered asking DD1 to audition anyway, and then say no to the school if she really doesn't like it, rather than discounting it now because of the audition.  I have asked the school for more information about the numbers of people who apply, and the numbers of those who audition, even though only 15 children get it.  I've discovered an acquaintance who works at the school who I've been thinking of asking what the audition process is like, so get some more information to provide to DD1, so she can finally be persuaded to audition.

Nothing was working.  She likes the school we visited yesterday.  Despite being able to choose 3 schools, she only wants to write that one down (so far - we have more school visits next week), and if she doesn't get it, she wants to remain Home Ed, and put her name on the waiting list for a space.

Tonight I went to Growth Group (one of the Bible studies at my church) having not been for a god few weeks due to holidays and various other commitments.  We were reading Romans 11:1-10 and discussing the starting question of whether God has rejected his people? which led on to whether we can believe God's Word (Romans 9:6)? and ultimately to a discussion about who God is.

Amazing as it seems, it turns out that God, is God! And even more hard to believe, is the fact that I am not God!  I am not the person who has ultimate control.  I am not meant to be the person in control.  I just need to trust in God and rest in His peace.

Why am I fighting to get DD1 to consider an audition that she doesn't want to do, when in fact a small, local school could be the best thing for her?  It could be where God wants her to be!  I do not know the future, but I choose to trust in God, in His goodness, and leave being God to Him.  I will pray about the situation, but DD1 is being sensible enough to consider going to school when she recognises that she needs more than what I can give,  Why shouldn't I trust her, and more importantly trust God in work in her life, to choose the school that best suits her needs?



Tuesday, 2 October 2018

All Change

This morning we looked around our first ever school - and it was a secondary school.

Up until now, my children have been home educated.  I'm not someone who had planned for years to home educate, I always assumed that my children would go to school because that's what you do.  I went to school, enjoyed it on the whole, and came out with good qualifications and went to uni.  When I had DD1 I expected to return to work and continue in my career, however when I returned to employment after maternity leave, it didn't hold the same importance for me and I became a Stay-at-home-mum.  Even then, I never planned to home educate, and assumed that when DD1 started Reception class, I would go back to work.

Children have a way of changing your plans, and it was clearly early on that DD1 was following her own path.  She taught herself to read (fluently!) at 3yo, and being a September baby she would have been nearly 5yo before starting school.  Way back when, I was bored in Primary school, and I didn't want to same for her, so after much reading and investigating we decided to home educate.

It has been BRILLIANT! I don't regret it at all, and it has totally changed the shape and direction of my life. I have not returned to employment, but home educate both girls during the day and I do private tutoring in the evenings to bring in some " pocket money" for myself.  I could go on and on about Home Education, but will refer you instead to a website I helped with: Educational Freedom

Our long-term plan, had been for the girls to be home educated until they go to college at 14yo (yes, if HEd you can go to college as part of a pre-16 course, younger than you can if you were schooled).  As DD1 loves dance and performing, the plan had been for her to go to college and do BTEC Dance alongside GCSE English.  DD2, being younger, has not got as much of a plan of what she wants to do, yet.

Having many friends through dance classes and gymnastics, DD1 knows much about school, despite never having gone, and we decided that once the children get beyond the age of about 8yo they would have a choice whether they want to go to school.  Absolutely not. Never. Why would you ask that?!
Until this past summer.  Previously DD1 had been asking for more structured work, so rather than Unschooling, I introduced an hour of maths and an hour of something else each week.  We were still child-led, but I started to use textbooks with the girls, so they got used to more formal study.
Until this past summer, when DD1 said she would like to try school.

Okay... that changes things, but we've always said they could try school if they wished, and at least they know that home education is always an option if it doesn't work out, for some reason.  As DD1 would be Yr6 now, I looked up various local schools, and had a search for Open Days, which have been planned for this week and next.  I had always planned to look around a Secondary school anyway, so this had prompted me into action, so the girls could make an informed choice.  What I hadn't anticipated, however, was that the school application deadline was so soon - Halloween!

Anyway, we looked around our first every school today, and DD1 loved it.  It's a small school atm as it is new, so growing year by year.  This is a positive in my book because although it's untested, with regards to GCSEs etc, the school will grow with her, and if DD2 decided to go in a few years time (though atm she's adamant she will never go to school), it still won't be massive.

So now, we have a few more schools to look around, and then I will need to apply for a school.  DD1 won't be going until next September, and there's plenty of time for her to change her mind.  I have warned her, however, that once I've bought the uniform she will have to stay for at least a term  I'm not made of money! Haha. But I now have 11 months to get my head around the fact that my Baby Number One is growing up, into an independent young lady, who wants to take charge of her own education by outsourcing it to someone other than me.  I'm sad but incredibly proud of her in equal parts.

Monday, 1 October 2018

Total Accountability

I'm 'baring all' in the name of total accountability and my belief in 2B.

I'm not skinny. I'm not pretty. I'm a fat mum with very little time or desire to spend hours pounding the streets after dark or whiling away the hours in the gym.  However, the 2B Mindset makes sense, both from an intuitive approach and from a scientific perspective. 

https://www.beachbodyondemand.com/nutrition/2b-mindset advertises itself as:

"What You’ll Discover:
  • How to eat the foods you love and feel satisfied after every meal—and still lose weight.
  • Proven strategies to help conquer cravings and survive everyday food temptations.
  • The right foods to eat—at the right times—to help maximize energy and weight loss.
The 2B Mindset™ takes a different approach to food than what fad diets have been telling us for years. In fact, it’s not a diet at all. It’s a mindset. And once you learn it, you’ll finally be in total control of food and your body, so you’ll forever know how to lose weight—happily—and keep it off.
Overcome emotional eating. End mindless snacking. And stop punishing yourself for indulging in the foods you love. It’s time to free yourself from deprivation diets. With the 2B Mindset, you can love your body and lose weight while still enjoying your favorite foods.
Here’s How to Get Started:
1. Sign up for the 2B Mindset, if you haven’t done so already.
2. Check out the Getting Started Guide, under the Resources tab.
3. Start watching the videos, beginning with Meet Ilana."

It's concepts are very simple, but that does not make it less true.  The basic principles are four concepts that form the 2 Bunnies: Water First, Veggies Most, Use the Scale and Track your food.

So, here I am.  Fat frumpy me, but sharing my journey of 2B, to encourage and inspire all of you.

My starting weight, as of this morning, is 96kg.

 My long-time goal is 60kg (I have achieved it before, thanks in part to hyperemesis gravidarum when pregnant) and I have a good reason for motivation: I need to get my BMI below 30 so that I can have a mastectomy with DIEP reconstruction in 3-4 years time; and I'd like to get down to my end goal as a means to prevent cancer.  Being BRCA1 I have a much higher likelihood of getting some cancers than the general population.