Sometimes I wonder if I should give up on pretending to lose weight, but I know that I need to in order to have the surgery I want in a few years time.
Someone shared this video on FB recently:
I've seen it before and I do find it inspirational. It makes me want to do more Body Grooving as clearly dancing is good for weightloss - I just need to keep going start again with it.
I know that the issues I have are in my head.
I know I can lose weight as I've done it before.
I know my goal weight of 64kg is achievable because I've done it before.
I need to get to the root cause of what is stopping me.
I need to get to the root cause of what is stopping me.
I need to find my motivation again, and cement it in my head. Whilst I don't have cancer, the idea of it is abstract, whereas I need to bring it to the forefront of my mind. I don't want cancer - I've seen what my mum has been through. I do want preventative surgery. And to have the reconstruction that I want, I need to have a healthy BMI.
I need to stop giving a shit about what other people think of me, and live life on my terms, and dance if I want to dance. When I took my girls to their dance lessons last week, I shared with some people about Body Groove, and we even did a dance in the hallway together. It was fun! And that's despite some of the kids and the other parents laughing at us. One parent who danced with me, even said that if I became a trainer and could offer classes whilst her child was dancing, she would come along - much like I did when a pt friend offered pt sessions at the dance studios a few years ago.
I need to stop giving a shit about what other people think of me, and live life on my terms, and dance if I want to dance. When I took my girls to their dance lessons last week, I shared with some people about Body Groove, and we even did a dance in the hallway together. It was fun! And that's despite some of the kids and the other parents laughing at us. One parent who danced with me, even said that if I became a trainer and could offer classes whilst her child was dancing, she would come along - much like I did when a pt friend offered pt sessions at the dance studios a few years ago.
A few weeks/months ago I used the excuse that I didn't have any suitable clothing to wear, as it was too tight or too hot. I have since bought loads of loose, groovy clothing that I am wearing as everyday wear, and could easily dance it, but I'm still not doing it.
And I need to rewatch all the 2B mindset videos. I think part of my problem is that I get so familiar with stuff that I know the 'right' things to say, or think, but don't actually action them. I'm clever enough to come up with the excuses as to why I don't need to stick to this or that this time, I'll do it next time; or I can justify why I really do want this cake/doughnut/alcohol, rather than holding out for my goals.
And I need to rewatch all the 2B mindset videos. I think part of my problem is that I get so familiar with stuff that I know the 'right' things to say, or think, but don't actually action them. I'm clever enough to come up with the excuses as to why I don't need to stick to this or that this time, I'll do it next time; or I can justify why I really do want this cake/doughnut/alcohol, rather than holding out for my goals.
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